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Thursday, February 28, 2008

Home

I am home. Thank you for all of your emails and concern. I haven't gotten around to responding to anyone and I'm extremely emotionally and physically drained, but I will.

I saw a comment on a blog that linked to me and the gist of it was that the person was suspicious of me, especially now that I'm a crazy person and I took a bunch of money from you guys for my family through fundraising efforts.

Let me just say this: suffering from depression and anxiety does not make me dishonest. I will gladly provide proof of that money's disbursement to anyone who would like it, but don't question my integrity just because I was overwhelmed and sought help. A lot of people need help but never seek it. That makes me no different than thousands of people, I just chose to seek help and I chose to make it public because I'm not ashamed of that. It is incredibly hard to admit that you're lost.

On a more McKnob note, though, I have enough material for a decade.

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Celeste said...: Hi.

I've never commented before, but I check your blog almost everyday for new updates. I love your writing, and style of storytelling. So many days I have been down in the dumps and your entries have bought a smile to my face.

I was so concerned when I saw your last entry and I truly hope you are doing okay. I was sending healing vibes all the way from Australia so hopefully they got there okay.

Take care, and its great to see you back.; 8:27 PM
Brad K. said...: Crystal, I hope you recover quickly, and find the joy and happiness you have been so great at sharing.

Blessed be!; 8:31 PM
Anonymous said...: OMG! You are a very brave soul and my admiration for you grows DAILY. Hang in there, keep on running with scissors and know that you are loved and cherished. Lots of lives are positively affected by you and your writing. Hang in there, we love you.
teri in kirkland; 8:31 PM
Bluepaintred said...: just so you know, I PPH you; 8:32 PM
James said...: Glad you're back, and that if you need help you're seeking it. Nothing wrong with admitting you need help, not at all. It's when it stays hidden and becomes everyone elses problem that it becomes bad stuff.

I've been reading your blog for only a few short months, but since I've been laid up on my back with some sort of devil flu-like thing all week I've been busying reading your entire blog, from the beginning. Great, funny, well written stuff. Love it. You've inspired me to try to write more often on my own little crappy space. Thank you!; 8:32 PM
Michelle said...: Everyone needs help now and again, and at least you knew enough to ask for it. I don't think anyone that has half a brain would ever question your integrity. Glad you are home, and hopefully you will feel like your old self soon! Not that I'm calling you old...please don't stab me with the scissors that you are running with!!! ; ); 8:35 PM
Jawn with a W said...: Crystal we miss you; 8:39 PM
Susabelle said...: It takes a BIG woman to ask for help. I applaud you. I had to ask for help, too, a few months ago. My doctor is amazing and I'm soooo much better but I, too, had to ask for help.

I'm sending you positive energy. You are one of the best reasons for me to go reading people's blogs.; 8:40 PM
Anonymous said...: PLEASE put yourself first for a while and recover. If you live long enough EVERYONE will be overwhelmed at some point and it is usually just a temporary situation. The relief that your humor has given me is worth way more then anything that I have give you or your grandparents. If you were writing as a professional this blog would be making you a fortune. You are a talented person with a very unique perspective on the world but you need to grow a thicker skin cause there are some hurtful people in the world. This is intended for you more then for the comments section but I'm not wise enough to know how to do that.
Doc Thomas; 8:42 PM
Avitable said...: Welcome back, Crystal. Next time, come down to Florida. A day with Britt and I is like being smacked in the face with an ocean of awesomeness.; 8:42 PM
Phaedrous said...: Dear Crystal,

As one who was functionally insane for a period of time and have experienced the dysfunctionality that comes with depression, let me just say that as long as you keep writing and communicating, you are doing well.

We are here and we will do whatever we can to bounce the ball back in your direction whenever you hit it our way.

Stay with us. We are here for you.

P.; 8:44 PM
RJ said...: NIL ILLEGITIMUS CARBORUNDUM; 8:45 PM
Tense Teacher said...: So glad you're back home, and good for you for taking care of yourself. Just continue to do that, and if that means you don't hang around here as much, that's okay. We'll all be here when you're ready.

Sending hugs your way.

(Oh, and I had a toilet in my front yard this past week, and I totally thought about you...); 8:49 PM
Dawn Elizableth said...: Crystal, I'm really glad you that you went for help. I've have family who was committed against their will and it wasn't a pretty thing. They realize now that it was because we cared but back then they couldn't see beyond their problems. My thoughts are with you and your family during this time. I need your stories to deal with my own problems. xoxo
DE; 8:49 PM
Charles said...: Indeed, don't let the bozo's grind you down! You've been missed!

(no, I don't know what PPH means, either.); 8:50 PM
Melissa said...: I've never commented on your blog before, but I've been reading it forever.

Hearing your news sent a shock of concern through me just as if you had been a family member of mine. Please do know that when I read it, the LAST possible thing on my mind was a sudden nagging doubt as to your integrity.

You're a brilliant soul and I hope that you are able to find what you need, wherever you need to go to find it. The rest of them can go screw themselves.; 8:51 PM
Moosekahl said...: Glad to hear you have started the right path. Been there, done that, doing it again...let's just say January was a "bad" month to sum it up without the ugly details. I sought help I needed to after only an acquaintance said to me, "you just don't seem okay, everything alright?" I knew it was bad if "it" was showing.

I hope the dark days get a bit brighter and we will continue to love you and send good mojo your way! Love ya!; 8:53 PM
Persnickety Ticker said...: Crystal, I love your blog, and am so glad you are back! You were very missed! Can't wait to read the material that was inspired by your "vacation from sanity." I have been on one of those, myself. Just know that you are very loved and your wonderful humor is very needed in many, many lives.; 8:54 PM
barnmouse said...: You are so brave for not only seeking help, but admitting it to the bloggy world. Anyone who is wary of you for that makes me wary of them.; 8:58 PM
Tracey said...: You are so not alone. I think everyone needs a mental break at least once in their life. Don't ever feel bad, or look down on yourself for being human.

As for the naysayers where your grandparents were concerned, they can go f**k themselves. Obviously more of us appreciate you and never doubted your integrity or intentions that that one little loser.

Chin up darlin' and know that we all appreciate you and all that you've done =); 8:58 PM
Deb Zemek said...: As one of those who helped out quite happily and trustingly I certainly don't need proof of anything and the person who wrote that trash has a very black soul. Don't ever have even the slightest doubt about how we feel about you and your family and how delighted we are that you share your life and stories with you. As for seeking help, that takes great courage and you should be proud of yourself. It's okay - maybe most of us have never met you in person, but you're as real as anyone I know and I will help you in any way I can whenever you need it - whether it's for you or your family. There are jerks everywhere but your friends far outnumber them and you brighten our lives immensely.

debzy; 9:05 PM
WhiteTrashInDenial said...: I'm a new reader and I just finished a three day bender reading your blog from beginning to end. I sacrificed sleep and stiffled giggles to read your blog.
As far as what others think of you: People are going to judge you how they see fit no matter what you do, and it's usually because they are dissatisfied with something about their own lives (maybe this person - or persons - is living their life in a very dishonest fashion). Had I the money to donate, I would never think twice that the money was being used for exactly as you have stated it would be used for.
Please don't dictate your life to suit the whims of some judgemental asshole. When I look through these comments, some from people you've never met - like me - who are more than willing to support you and speak out to those who question your integrity.
I applaud you for seeking help, and knowing when you needed it, and I look forward to detailed directions of how to make a macaroni noodle picture frame a therapeutic experience!; 9:07 PM
Duchess said...: welcome back! Don't let the dumbasses get you down...they outnumber us 3 to 1, so if you let em get ya down, they will stampede and trample you...and you deserve better than that.; 9:11 PM
Anonymous said...: Our thoughts are with you Crystal. Reading Mr McNobb's post made me worry - he really doesn't have your style! I've been there, done that with depression and being hospitalised. It took a long while for me to realise that the light at the end of the tunnel wasn't a train!

The fact that you have been continuing with your blog when you were feeling like shit is testament to your guts and strong will.; 9:14 PM
Used*to*be*me said...: Hey girl. I hope you are feeling better too. I PPH you and have for a long time. Hang in there. We all have our demons, some of us get help when we need it.

xoxo Me

(PPH means Pink Puffy Heart (you) i.e. We love her.); 9:16 PM
Squeaky Wheel said...: This is going to sound nuts, but I mean it - when I read that entry, knowing that you live so close to me, I had to suppress the urge to drive to where I figured you were and give you a hug or a card or something, because it just worried me that you had reached a point where you felt the need to ask for help that would envelop commitment as a part of treatment.

I hope you start feeling better.; 9:20 PM
ElizabethSheryl said...: It happens. Exhaustion, depression, that point where things have to STOP going like they have been going. Some people seek treatment from therapists, some take off for a month to a foreign country, or run off with their slightly slutty assistant. There is no shame in getting help, and the only way it would have been a failure is if you would have ignored the part of you that knew you needed help and made things a whole lot worse for you and your family.; 9:26 PM
Kathryn said...: Hey Crystal--I somehow missed your last entry. Anyway, from one crazy girl to another, I hope you're feeling back up to speed soon. But, you know, not too up to speed. I worry that if you're totally sane, we might not have your less-than-sane humor. :); 9:32 PM
psychicgeek.com said...: What's beautiful about being in the nutbar hotel is that you can get yourself stablized quickly on the meds that work the best for you. So yay! Don't expect overnight miracles, but do look for a tiny bit of joy each day. I love to read your blog.
For me, in winter (cold, Canadian, never-ending)when I see a crocus, then I know that Yes! There is a God! I spend most of the winter dreaming of the sighting of the first crocus.; 9:32 PM
LadyBugCrossing said...: Welcome home!
Help is there for those who need it. If you need you ask. Anyone who thinks badly of someone who asks for help is a moron.
If there is anything I can do for you - please ask.
xo
LBC; 9:33 PM
basteine said...: Crystal, I have read your blog for several months now and found myself making time to read from the beginning to present. If you read the couple entries in my blog you'll see that it is very difficult for me in my present circumstances to make that kind of time. I have come to view you as a friend seperated by distance through the window your blog provides. It was very disheartening to hear of your misfortunes but i am glad to hear things are looking up. Therapy has been a huge help for me to deal with my circumstances and i hope whatever assistance you choose to take helps you as much as that has helped me. Your blog provides a laugh that makes my day a little brighter. Take care and hopefully things will get much easier for you.; 9:37 PM
Anonymous said...: lot of people need help but never seek it. That makes me no different than thousands of people, I just chose to seek help and I chose to make it public because I'm not ashamed of that. It is incredibly hard to admit that you're lost.

That is so true. Personally, I need to come up with a little over $13,000 in order to buy my son an Augmentative and Alternative Communication Device (AAC).

Unfortunately, despite the fact he has had a speech pathologist at a big name children's hospital, several speech therapists and teachers ALL say he NEEDS the device, the insurance company has denied the claim which means we have to pay for it out of pocket.

The device itself costs $7,995.
Upgrade of ram to 512 mb costs another $80.
XP Pro on it (because it doesn't have it on it when ordered, it's extra) another $250.
The additional software needed costs a total of $1500.
The case to carry it around another $135.
Warranty another $1820.
Car adapter $100.
Key guard $150.
1024x768 monitor $130.
Grand total: $13,525.

I can't even get a loan to buy the device. We make too much money to get state help but not enough to buy the device. It's not like he doesn't need it because he does - he's had teachers, therapists and a pathologist at the children's hospital all say he needs it but nope can't get it for him.

So you know what, don't let anyone say your family member probably didn't need the money. Unless that person is actually there to see how you live, then they have no room to talk.; 9:38 PM
skrpndiva said...: I agree with everything that everyone here has said. It takes guts to admit when we've done something wrong. It takes guts to ask for forgiveness. It takes guts to admit that all is not well and that we have problems. Having the ability to know when we have wronged or when we have messed up or when we need help, to me, shows the utmost in integrity.

So, basically screw the bozo that mentioned that and anyone else like him/her!

Thanks for making me laugh; for making us all laugh. Hopefully you'll feel like laughing again soon!

Jacquie; 9:44 PM
Michelle said...: Crystal --
Thank you for being your fabulous, fabulous, self, from wherever.; 9:45 PM
Sandy said...: I'm glad you got help and glad that you are back.

I'll keep you in my prayers.; 9:46 PM
Dee said...: So glad you're home Crystal, I've been thinking about you and wishing you all the best.; 9:55 PM
Virginia said...: I was gonna tell ya to save me some tapioka (sp?) pudding but you left before they could send me there (its only a matter of time!)

When's nap time?; 9:56 PM
tracey said...: Hi.

I am a frequent reader and first time poster. I gave because I saw your need as whole and true. Your grandparents' story touched me. My grandparents have been gone for a few years now but if they were here and in need of help, I would do whatever I needed to do to help them.

Your plea actually warmed my heart and I am so sorry that someone would say something negative when you are going through such a tough thing.

Anyway EFFF them!!!!!

Be better - Cheers!!; 9:58 PM
Kim said...: Ya know, you just can't fix stupid with some people. Don't even bother listening to that goofball. I don't comment often, but I read you daily and have so much respect for you. Especially after today, I just think there are people out there, who get their rocks off by insulting other people's minds, compassion etc.

Glad you're home and hope you're feeling better.; 9:59 PM
Sweet Irene said...: Dear Crystal,

I am manic depressive my self and, luckily, there are only a few stupid people out there who don't get it. Most people are very understanding and supportive and I hope that this will be your experience as well.

I wish you all the best and a lot of strength and fortitude and good doctors and good medicines.

You hang in there!; 10:02 PM
Jessica said...: Glad to see you back! I am very impressed that you understand what so many people today don't.
If you need any kind of help at all, for anything, you should do your best to find it. When it's something that is otherwise completely out of your control, you have to seek it out.
I hope things are much better, and look forward to hearing more about your mom's hoo haw very soon. :); 10:04 PM
Christina said...: Crystal,
I'm so glad you're back and you are doing better. I think it's admirable that you can document what you're going through. It gives so much strength to people that are going through or have gone through similar depressions/anxiety attacks. Hang in there. I look forward to more funny posts and updates on you in the future. :-); 10:05 PM
Anonymous said...: I think I missed something here, what happened? I got the update about the commited post, but nothing other than that. I am a little confused about what happened to you. So saying that, I am so happy that you are now home, and hopefully feeling better.

Mandy; 10:07 PM
Charlotte said...: So glad that you're home. I did link to your blog because I wanted my readers to send you as much love and sparkly light as I did.

Consider yourself hugged.; 10:09 PM
Mare said...: If I had to pay you a dimefor every time you made me laugh when I felt like crying I'd owe you something in the vicinity of 20 Grand.

Do. Not. Ever. Let. The. Bastards. Get. You. Down.; 10:11 PM
~Munchkin Madness~ said...: Here's a hug from Kansas - hopefully you'll kick the blues soon!

As for the idiot who doesn't trust you, obviously the majority of your readers do or they wouldn't have helped you out, don't let people like that get you down!; 10:11 PM
hotdrwife said...: I am constantly amazed at how awful people can be, and I'm sorry that spilled over into your life. I am glad you got help, because really, you are one of the few. Bravo, honey. Take care yourself.; 10:12 PM
EvylFashionista said...: Hi Crystal!

I'm so glad to see you are back from your little "holiday". I've never commented before, but I've been a reader for a long time. It takes a strong person to realize that they can't do it all and brava to you for seeking help.

To those to critize you and have negative things to say, the heck with them. No matter who you are, someone out there is going to be unhappy with you and what you do. Stick to your guns and be true to yourself.; 10:20 PM
Joan said...: When I first read your post on Tuesday, I kept waiting for your usual punchline. When I realized there was no punchline, I was so concerned and waited for your update. So glad you're home now and let me tell you, there have been several times in my life that I should have checked myself in to a facility instead of scaring the hell out of my family and friends with my "thudding" depression.; 10:31 PM
WyzWmn© said...: I too am one of the people that has been "thinking of you" over the last week er so and sending you all the strength I can muster...

know for sure that you are not alone...anxiety and depression like to kill me on more than one occassion...only being strong enough to ask for help saves me

patience grasshopper...you'll get better...but you'll have to work at it; 10:40 PM
Undercover-Nerd said...: On tuesday I thought you were being sarcastic.... but now I see that you're just like many of us. Seeking help is all that saves us, again and again. IT's all that keeps us alive. Don't be ashamed. You're strong enough to admit you're weak. Most do not advance to that place.; 10:58 PM
Kimberley said...: Boy, if everyone were ACTUALLY as honest as you are we'd all be called into question. Seriously, most people who blog keep things from their readers. The reason we read yours is because you don't hold back. If someone can't take it, then that's on them. I applaud you for putting it all out there, and I don't think anyone who has a heart believes you were dishonest.

I hope you take time for yourself and don't sweat the small people.; 10:58 PM
Ambitious Blonde said...: Crystal honey I am so glad you took that step, because God knows it's a hard one to take.

Take some time for you, and don't sweat the ones who are sipping Haterade. Your loyal minions will be here waiting with open arms when you come back, just like the Journey song.; 11:06 PM
Kelley said...: Shit, people suck.

I read the previous post, thought man, that takes some guts to say that. Wanted to email you support but thought better of it cause it would just sound cheesy.

Looking forward to the updates though, *snigger* I am sure you will put the famous McKnob spin on it and have me spitting out my latte. Better stock up on paper towels.

Smootches babe. You have just risen a notch on on cool chicks I would love to have a drink with list.; 11:15 PM
Shell said...: I am one of the people who donated to your family and let me tell you, I read the previous post and it never crossed my mind to think that you had been dishonest about the money....ever....and I think most people would say the same.

Be proud of the fact that you are solid enough to recognize the need for help, and ask for it, it is an admirable thing! I am glad to see that you are feeling somewhat better and back at home.

(hugs); 11:18 PM
Bob@thenest said...: So, you're smart enough to know when you need a hand. Good on ya. A lot of people aren't and are run over by the train of life.

I do hope your experience hasn't changed your sense of humor -- it would ruin my daily read.; 11:45 PM
eggplant43 said...: First off, I'd like to let you know that I love you, and I feel that I am part of a community that loves you. I believe that the cash sent for your wonderful grandparents was a very concrete outpouring of that love. So screw the naysayers, they are clearly not a part of this community, in fact, I believe they seek to destroy this community. They don't have a snowballs chance in hell, in fact, they've probably helped to gather us in.

I believe you are a natural comedienne, and I understand that many of the greatest comedians come from a depth of human misery, that the humor is part of the climb out of despair, a positive choice to transcend the pain.

The beauty of this process is the fact that you get to share it with others, you get recognition, validation, and lots of wet underwesr.

I believe that your openness, you honesty, your humor,and your heart have connected you to a large group of folks who span the globe. There is a certain magic in that, and I applaud you as the creator.

So you do whatever you need to do for you, and your family, and know your fans eagerly await your happiness, wellness, and return to our fold when it is right for you.; 12:12 AM
JK said...: "especially now that I'm a crazy person"
"now"????
You've been crazy hilarious and crazy special from the first post I ever read... you rock, Crystal, hang in there, we're looking forward to many, many more posts...; 12:32 AM
Laura said...: Oh YAY!!! You are HOME!!!
It doesn't matter what anyone else says...if you know that you are being honest then that is ALL that matters. Remember, those who cheat see cheaters everywhere and those who lie expect dishonesty. Consider the source. Started reading you from the fingercot post ans went back to read through all the archives. My youngest is also only 6 months older than Harmony so all of your preg and baby post rang SO TRUE! Keep on Keepin on.; 12:39 AM
Ginamonster said...: GOOD for you. FUCK them. Be STRONG. oh wait, you already are.

g; 12:49 AM
Anonymous said...: You'll be in my prayers. I understand that people can be skeptical about donating real money, however I also learned to keep my big mouth shut unless I knew for a fact that something is wrong. Whoever wrote that obviously has a horribly negative outlook on the world and should be pitied.

-Alanna; 1:08 AM
the cat in the hat said...: Hey we PAID YOU for your most excellent entertainment well rendered, just like going out to a movie or a stand-up comedian. Don't ever think you didn't EARN every bit of it with your Art. You ROCK!; 1:30 AM
Jacquelyn Frank said...: OH sweetie, take it from a gal who has two things in common with you...harsh critics and daily medications...opinions are definitely like assholes, everyone has one and they are usually full of shit. Depression and anxiety disorders are like rheumatoid arthritis or lupus, you can't do anything to prevent getting them and they blindside you until you are little more than mental roadkill. No one would walk up to an AIDs patient and say "Dude, you are such a loser. Snap out of it. Die on your own time." What makes people think they have the right to do so to those of us who suffer from OCD and equally uncontrollable issues? Pass judgment on me? Criticize me? Sure. Be my guest. But first, go steal that lollipop from that kid with leukemia and tell her she's going to die. When you're finished, then you can come find me.

I love you. You make me laugh like no one else I know. I get giggly and giddy when I see your notice in my email. I envy you and want to be you when I grow up. Babe, even if you took the piddly money I donated to go out to dinner I would have thought you damn well deserved it.

ROCK ON!; 2:28 AM
Miss Understood said...: I'm a first time commenter here too. I just want to say that what you did for your Grandparents was absolutely wonderful. I never doubted your integrity for a second.

Welcome home. I look forward to seeing you back here real soon.; 2:32 AM
tiger lamb girl said...: Bless your heart, Crystal.

Please don't even give those people who say crap one ounce of energy. Who cares what they think, anyway. Those kinda people are ALWAYS gonna be around smacking others down. Ignore them.

You're in my prayers. I mean that Crystal McKnob:). Lots of love and hugs. xo; 3:58 AM
jac said...: i am proud of you. i hope you are proud of you, too.
glad you're back.; 5:00 AM
Anonymous said...: I work for the American Psychological Association in Washington, D.C. When I first started working here I also felt some uneasiness about people seeking help for mental health issues. It didn't take long to get over those feelings. There is a lot of good help out there for people who are experiencing a temporary condition. Who doesn't get a little stressed out now and then? If you have a physical injury you go to the doctor, right?

Anyway, please pass along this URL http://www.apahelpcenter.org/ for others who may need to know where to start to help get them back on the trail of good mental health.

Thanks!; 5:47 AM
Christine said...: Welcome home, Crystal.; 5:51 AM
The Queen said...: 'If I had to pay you a dime for every time you made me laugh when I felt like crying I'd owe you something in the vicinity of 20 Grand'

Ditto. I am a skeptical person and never would have thought that I'd give money to some stranger on the internet. But, I said to myself even if the whole story is a lie you deserve to be paid for your writing and my donation was nothing compared to what you deserve for your stories. Most con men take and don't give anything in return. At least you give us a good laugh!; 5:55 AM
The Queen said...: It was my comment about my 17 year old wanting tucked in with a story that put you over the edge wasn't it? Sorry about that. At least you got a rest. I've been penciling in a nervous breakdown for years but never seem to find the time what with all that friggin tuckin in and all! Take care!; 6:02 AM
Anonymous said...: Just wanted to tell you that, even tho I'm just a lurker, I've been thinking about you ever since reading your last post.. so glad that you are home.. hope that you find some peace.. and thank you. Thank you for your honesty.. we may not know you, but most of us are here for you.. good times and bad. I love your blog and applaud your honesty.; 6:25 AM
Anonymous said...: Go on you brave thing you!
Have a good weekend!Snapper; 6:26 AM
Ace said...: Be well, Crystal.

Depression isn't easy, and it gets the best of even the funniest of us sometimes, I know.

It's a shame. The rest of us have your blog to put a smile on our faces. What will you do? :)

I hope our warm thoughts do the same for you.; 6:45 AM
Bogart in P Towne said...: Glad to hear you are getting help. Depression is one of the most difficult things I have ever seen someone go through...

I will pray for both you and your family. I know first hand how hard it is on your husband.; 7:14 AM
Pixie said...: Crystal, you want some money to run away with? Because if you do, you deserve some. And we all know you won't steal from your Nanny and Grandpa.; 7:17 AM
SonarMan said...: Crystal,
I'm so glad to hear you made it through and are back home. It's a very brave thing to do to seek help, when doing so makes you very vulnerable. You should give yourself credit for that.

Just be thankful that they haven't told you that you were mental enough to volunteer for submarines, 'cause everyone knows how nuts we are...

And I can't wait to hear your stories from the land of rubber rooms and love-me-jackets.

In all seriousness, welcome home.; 7:39 AM
Mia said...: Aww.. honey.. I thought you were just kidding with that last post.

Now scoot over and make some space for me... I'm starting to think a little time "away" might be just what I need :)

::hug::; 7:41 AM
Rebecca said...: SO glad you are home, and that you are able to deal with your problems without sweeping them under the rug or being ashamed. Kudos to you, and I have been thinking of you this week.; 7:51 AM
MP said...: I have to be honest..I too thought that was a sarcastic snarky Crystal remark..and you just took a bloggy break. Glad to hear that you were actually getting help..smart girl..
Looking forward to seeing pictures of your crafts you made while on the inside :-); 7:52 AM
Miss Britt said...: Aw Crystal, try not to fret. Haters will use ANYTHING as a weapon.

I blogged a while ago about my battle with depression - and oh boy did they have a field day with that.

Of course, they also like to bitch about:

*pictures of my kids
*post about body image
*shoes
*pictures of my husband

Pretty much anything is fuel in the hands of the wrong person. Just keep on keepin' on.; 7:53 AM
Dawn said...: Crystal,

From another infrequent commenter, it's so good to see you back. After your last post I was so worried. I hope you are doing well. I too suffer from depression and anxiety so I can imagine the strength required to ask for help.

I hope you find peace. Don't let the assholes get you down. I never once doubted you were giving that money to your grandparents. My only problem was that I couldn't give more.

Thank you for everything you do for your family and for us. And now, thank you for taking care of YOU. You're in my prayers.; 7:54 AM
Anonymous said...: James 4:2 says many of us "have not because we ask not". You are the exact opposite and I appluad you because of this. Your bravery and openess encourages so many. God brings us people through prayer. I am praying that God brings you even more people to help you in whatever obstacles you are facing.

Our prayers are with you.

Be blessed.; 7:55 AM
Gina said...: I'm glad you're doing OK. Haters suck. I'm so sick of the stupid stigma surroundinf mental health! No one would have said a thing if you had been in the hospital for your appendix or because you broke a bone. Why should mental health be any dofferetn.; 8:02 AM
chicken said...: I just wanted to say that I am glad that you sought the help that you needed. I am glad that you are back home with your family...I hope that you take it easy over the next few days/weeks/months whatever it takes to feel well again. You know you are not alone...a lot of us PPH you...
XOXO; 8:06 AM
Angelina Yount said...: My first thought when I read this post is "Been there, done that." Most people will never understand what it's like to be on the other side of a mental illness, and most will never try. Those of us who venture into the pysch ward to get help are the brave ones.

Though I have to say, even though I've spent a couple of days in the hospital before, I'm still scared to death of them. Its the whole control issue. And the socialization and making of macaroni pictures. I think.

So kudos to you for getting that help, and even more for getting out.; 8:25 AM
dneylon said...: some people have more mouth than brain.

you just keep getting better..; 8:36 AM
KC said...: I admire your bravery - especially in your willingness to talk about something that is hard for so many people.

Sending hugs and smiles your way. Get better. We will be here.; 8:37 AM
JLBuckalew said...: Crystal, at some point i think almost everyone deals with depression. For some it's very mild and for others, it is a deep chasm that you have to claw your way out of. Kudos to you for seeing the downslide before irreperable damage was done to you or your children. You were self aware enough to know you needed help and courageous enough to go get it. If more people admitted to their need for mental health care I believe there would be less stigma for those who suffer from mental illnesses. The fact is, mental illness is no less real than physical illness. You would not feel bad or embarassed to seek a doctor for a physical health problem, so please, please do not let anyone make you think less of yourself for seeking a doctor for a mental heath problem. Consider this -- you have taught your children to be self aware. To seek help when they need it. That you love them enough to get the help you needed so that you could continue to be a good parent to them. This is a phenomenal lesson. Know that you are loved.; 8:46 AM
Jill said...: Uh Crystal- we knew you were crazy- you didnt just get that way!

Anyway- dont let it get to you- there are always assholes that we will run into.

If we were worried, we wouldnt have donated.

And I think you should start a Crystal needs a vacation donation button- and I bet you would get a bunch of donations for that.

We love and appreciate you. Glad you are home.; 8:50 AM
FaithEllen said...: Crystal, I'm a fairly new reader, and I salute you for seeking to help people you love, and more for seeking help for yourself.; 9:12 AM
aca said...: So glad you're home - though with what little I know (i.e. only what you posted) it seems you made the right decision. Keep strong; you've got tons of people backing you up. :) Praying for you!; 9:18 AM
Geekgrl64 said...: Crystal - been a reader for a few months, first time commenter. I just wanted to say Bravo for being honest about your hospital stay. Bravo to you for realizing that you needed to go in and get the help that you needed. Hang in there and know that you are cared about and loved.; 9:22 AM
Marissa said...: Welcome home.; 9:24 AM
GreenCanary said...: Hey Crystal! I applaud you for seeking help, and I'll be rooting for you as you navigate your way down the depression/anxiety path. Be warned, it's a rocky one and it will definitely have its ups and downs. And the people with big opinions and bigger mouths? (Like the person who criticized you for helping your grandparents.) They won't go away, and they'll love to tell you what you need to do to "snap out of it." So remember the things that you love and hold on to them on the bad days. And on the good days? CELEBRATE.

If you ever need someone to listen or a shoulder to cry on, email me. I've been walking the path for about seven years now, so I'm an old pro at this :)

Best of luck, chickie-monkey.

- GreenCanary; 9:59 AM
goosefairy said...: unfortunately there are still people who think seeing someone to help you out of a dark time is something to be ashamed of. i doubt you need me to tell you this, but ignore those asshats.

or to put it a nicer way, just tell them "oh pooh!"

i have recently discovered you and have worked my way up from your very first post. when i first started reading you i was reminded very strongly of a very dear friend of mine (who, along with me, got escorted to the state line in oregon and told "please don't ever come back") so i feel like i really know you. heh. i probably don't but i feel like i do ;)

leaving you with something i saw on a sign once when i was in the throes of a deep black depression

"the good times never last but neither do the bad"

take care of yourself. you have become very dear to me.; 10:01 AM
Anonymous said...: You are so kind to share your world with us. Through your interesting perspective, I am able to see even the bad stuff in a different way. Please take care of yourself, I will keep you in my thoughts.; 10:20 AM
Kiran Vennum said...: Ode to Crystal - http://invennumation.blogspot.com/2008/02/ode-to-crystal.html; 10:28 AM
Carey said...: Crystal, I'm so glad you're home now and feeling better. It takes a strong person to admit when they need help and go get it. I believe in you, and obviously lots of others do too. Anyone who doesn't, well, their opinion just isn't that important.; 10:42 AM
Kyddryn said...: Welcome home.

There's nothing wrong with seeking solace where you may.

There've been times when, if I thought anyone else would do a competent job with the Evil Genius, I would have checked into a quiet room myself.

Shade and Sweetwater,
K; 11:13 AM
Robin said...: I admit, I was one of those who thought your last post would end in a punchline. After reading it through three times and seeing that comments were closed, I realized the truth.

Good luck on your recovery road, Crystal. I hope you get all the support you need from Chris, Virginia, Devon, Harmony and the rest of your extended families (including us?). You are already stronger and healthier by admitting you couldn't get better all alone.

I didn't contribute for your grandparents because I couldn't (three months behind on the mortgage at the time) but I have offered to others in the past in time of need. I even had it returned once when the issue was resolved differently. I deal with cons at work routinely and I've yet to see them offer a thank you note for swindling anyone. Plus, as noted by others, you deserve payment for entertaining us and making us laugh.

Now if you start collecting to help out your uncle in Nigeria, I'll have to be a little skeptical.; 11:36 AM
Anonymous said...: So happy that you are better and pray that the upward trend continues, for your sake. Those of us who read your blog are happy that you are getting the help you need. You are a good example to all of us who deal with depression and anxiety. Thanks for the joy you bring into our lives and I hope you are finding joy in your life as well.; 11:48 AM
Christina said...: I am so glad that you are home and that you are doing okay.

I wish nothing but good things for you and your family!; 11:51 AM
J said...: I'm glad you're home! There's nothing I can say any better than the 102 people before me. I'm just happy you did the right thing and asked for help, that was very big of you.; 12:21 PM
Laura said...: Kuddos to you for being brave enough to share your life and all of the ups and downs you go though with the rest of us.

I think the person that made a comment about the money and where is might have gone because they were now "suspicious of (you), especially now that (you're) a crazy person" spoke more loudly to the rest of the blog-reading world about their own insecurities than about your integrity.

Keep your head up sweetie. I love, love, love your blog.; 12:23 PM
Mrs. Swizzle said...: I know there have already been over 100 people who have said it, but you can't hear it too many times...

Glad you're home. Glad sought help. Just take things one step at a time.

I, like others who've posted, take medication for depression. Some days I wonder if they sent me sugar pills! Whenever I've had a real f*@k of a day, your blog has never failed to make me laugh. You're saving lives!; 12:32 PM
Anonymous said...: Lissa says:

Yay Crystal, I'm so glad you're home!! I've donated twice and I know my sister has too -- we love you bunches and we're so glad you're back home.

Everyone else -- let's cheer up Crystal, 'mkay? Post something stupid/crazy you've done in the comments and make Crystal smile!

Me -- Just yesterday I walked from the bitter cold into a very very classy bar/restaurant, unbuttoned my ankle-length jacket and unwrapped my scarf, THEN to realize -- that my skirt had ridden up during the walk and I was flashing my hose-clad legs, from knees to crotch, to the whole bar. :) Feel better!!; 1:12 PM
Anonymous said...: Well, if nobody has told you how special and gracious you are...let me be the first. You not only share your life, you share your gift of wit and writing. The world is a better place because you do.; 1:19 PM
Sarah, Goon Squad Sarah said...: If it makes you feel better that never even occurred to me.

I hope you are feeling better.; 1:19 PM
Paige Jennifer said...: I'm currently on therapy parole so three cheers to people who are honest with the world. To celebrate, I'd like to share a joke:

How can you tell the doctors from the patients in a psych ward?

Eventually the patients get better and leave.

Good luck with your recovery!
xoxo; 1:23 PM
Jennifer said...: Crystal- We was worried when we read the Committed post! Glad to hear you're home and feeling better. All the comments here hopefully make you realize there are many, many people pulling for you. Tell the stupid folks to go pound sand! I've been taking Vitamin Z (Zoloft!) since my twins were born 2 1/2 years ago. Helps me be a better wife and mother; I'm not pissed off and snarling all the time.

Take care!
Jennifer

PS: have you ever met Heather Armstrong of Dooce? She's struggled with crazy for a while now. She's got some great posts on the subject. Check it out!; 1:31 PM
Craze said...: Hang in there girl. The road to recover is admitting you need help.; 2:00 PM
The Doggy Did It said...: more power to ya girl, I think your hysterical! Anyone talking shit, is just a jealous hater, fuckem.; 2:14 PM
firecracker panda said...: Crystal, so glad to hear you were able to ask for some help and that you are home and on the way to wellness! Best wishes to you and your family.; 2:30 PM
Linda said...: Thank goodness you are back. I am also a lurker, as I do not have a blog. I have read all of you past post and have fallen in love with you and your family. Please take care of yourself because you have no idea how many people can't wait to daily read you posts!!; 2:35 PM
Special K said...: I am another one checking back daily to see if there was an update! I am glad to see you back and getting help when you needed it. So many don't.
Take care of yourself and get back to us when you can, no rush! :); 2:39 PM
beagle said...: hang in there and take care of your self. tell all the over opinionated douche bags that try to make you feel bad to go *@!(*!@* their self. ;)

*HUGS*; 3:18 PM
Marie said...: Crystal, take care of yourself and your family. praying you are well soon !!

Marie; 3:25 PM
Anonymous said...: Looong time lurker, first time commenter.
So glad to see you back, and glad you found the strength to ask for help when you needed it. Take care of yourself, I'll be thinking of you and your family.

And don't let the internet idiots get you down.; 3:27 PM
Mollie said...: From one former Mississippi girl to another (it's the state that eats your brains. GET OUT!!!) I'm glad to hear you're home. I'm addicted to your blog. It more often than not makes me laugh and feel much better than the crap in all those prescription bottles in my dresser drawer.

As for those who question your "integrity". Screw em.

Much love
Mollie; 3:35 PM
Amyblamy said...: Crystal,
I know it's rather obvious from the umpteen bagazillion comments to this post, but you are not alone. Had it not been for my Dr. giving me Wellbutrin and Xanax, I would still be battling panic attacks, bouts with uncontrollable crying and days of rage with no reason. There have been many days in my life where I wished for the bravery to ask for help. I've battled depression and anxiety disorders since I was 14....20 years and several prescriptions of different drugs later and I'm finally feeling like I can cope. So don't let the Tom Cruise's of the world get you down....they don't really know unless they've been there. Keep your head up and know you are loved!; 3:37 PM
Jennifer said...: We Love You,
Sweet Girl.
Dont let the bastards get ya down.
xo Much Love, Jenn; 3:38 PM
Stacia said...: Hi Sweetie,

hope you get back to "normal" whatever normal is for you. I'm glad you were brave enough to get help and I hope it really helped. I'll be praying for you.; 3:38 PM
ruffian said...: Ditto, ditto, ditto...but sick cookie that I am , i am so looking forward to your comments on the stay~someone upthread talked about you being a true commediane and that means being a truth teller. And you are a grand one sweetie.; 3:58 PM
Anonymous said...: I think you're brave. :wub:; 4:07 PM
DannieS72 said...: There is no shame in admitting to needing help or seekingit out. The shame should be in the doing nothing aboutit. You are awesome & I'm damn gl;ad to be a loyal fan & reader!; 4:29 PM
Alcibiades said...: Welcome home from yet another lurker on the other side of the world who's breaking their silence to say you're a hero; to thank you for all you've brought us through your writing, wit, and insight; and to let you know how much we're all with you.; 5:06 PM
bub said...: It takes a lot of courage to seek help. I know. Hang in there, you always bring a smile to my face.; 5:19 PM
friday18 said...: BIG HUGS!

I'm glad I'm not the only one who thought you were kidding in your last post. When I got the email about that post, I realized you were serious, and I felt like a shit just for thinking you were kidding.

You'll get nothing but support and hugs from this end, lady. And frequent bouts of gut-busting laughter in response to your posts. And referred to everyone I know who needs a good laugh (which is everyone). And whatever I can give any time you ask. Okay, so I guess you'll get a few things from me. But I'll never doubt your integrity.

You're one of my best friends that I've never met.

Here for you always,
Friday; 7:10 PM
balancing act said...: You have put your personal life out there. It is too bad that some can't see how courageous you are to seek help when you needed it. You wit is uncompariable. Thank you for sharing it with all of us.; 7:19 PM
Jessie said...: I had no idea you were serious, Crystal. Everyone in this day in age has some psychological issue. We know this because society is so pressure-cooking that it's inevitable. You're not wrong for seeking help. Only the strong work on fixing weaknesses. If anyone doesn't believe you, that's on them. Not you. Just take care of yourself first and foremost. If nothing else, the small vacation was a warning sign that you need to come first.; 7:28 PM
Anonymous said...: Crystal, I'm so glad that your o.k., I read the post and my prayers went out to you and your family.

Glad that you asked for help and hopefully you are getting the help you need.

I've been there too, and I'm not ashamed to let people know that

I love your blog and the stuff you write is just wonderful

so glad to see you back

Mich; 7:32 PM
Ms Kim said...: I have to say:

I ADORE YOU!

Only us "sane" people will admit we are crazy.

Keep on keeping it real.; 7:32 PM
Arlene said...: Like many others I have never commented here before but have enjoyed your sense of humor and honesty.

I to suffer from severe depression and anxiety. It has cost me my career and very nearly ruined my life.

You are not alone!

Be safe and well always.; 8:01 PM
Kim said...: I know personally that depression and anxiety are no fun at all.

I'm glad that you have such a large blog readership to encourage you when you're going through a rough patch. I wish that I did!; 8:05 PM
GirlPirate said...: funny.I can't say that your integrity was on my mind when I read the last post. Some people are just douche bags and because they are douche bags they feel that everyone else must be a douche bag. Fucking douche bags.

Im happy to know that youare doing what you need to do to get better and are home again. I look forward to a continued obsession with your blog.; 9:12 PM
elise said...: i would never think that! i hope you get some rest and feel better soon - everyone needs a break every now and then! take care - elise; 9:42 PM
sharon said...: This post has been removed by the author.; 9:45 PM
igs4me said...: i'm glad you are home. and i'll be praying for you. you deserve whatever people felt like in their heart to send to you, for your grandparents. clicking a donation button is their choice. and you have given enough laughs, and joy, that if you were published in a book, i bet they would buy it, as i would.; 9:48 PM
Ambulance Driver said...: You know, Crystal...

fuck 'em.

They aren't worth your time and hurt feelings.; 9:48 PM
Cristie said...: Crystal first, I am glad youre back home and you and your family will be in my prayers. Second, fuck the person who linked to you and said that shit. WE (your loyal readers) know, exactly how the donations went down and exactly what/who they were for. Most importantly, God knows. I know it bothers you, try not to let it so much. Take care of yourself and that beautiful family, you are wonderful!!; 11:04 PM
Anonymous said...: Crystal;

I cannot count the times you forced me to run the throne room to pee so my chair did not have to suffer the indignity.

Why you are not earning the salary/payoff/bribe of a top notch comedian baffles me.

There are a bunch of them that should kiss your feet and wish they could even come close.

Art in Texas; 12:23 AM
kitten said...: a long time ago on designing women, the "closed ward" was referred to as the macadamia ranch. fancy words for the nut farm.

i've been committed, twice. the second time landed me in ICU for a couple of days first. 17 years ago this may, in fact.

people who can laugh at themselves...end up doing a lot better than they know. i can laugh at myself, too. *huggles*; 5:01 AM
Turk Turon said...: Crystal,

Your blog is an absolute JOY!

You rock!

Turk; 5:43 AM
Vanda said...: Good for you for getting the help you needed. I say bugger the lot of them that don't believe you!

Giant hugs from across the pond.

Remember, don't let the bas^%rds get you down kiddo.; 7:18 AM
Vanda said...: Good for you for getting the help you needed. I say bugger the lot of them that don't believe you!

Giant hugs from across the pond.

Remember, don't let the bas^%rds get you down kiddo.; 7:18 AM
Tiffany said...: It takes a tremendous amount of strength to love yourself enough to get help. I have done it and no matter how much I loved the people around me it was't until I let myself love me that I was able to accept help. You're on the right road, but I'm sure you already know that.

Look at everything you have been through in the last few months. (I've only been reading your blog for 4 months.)With all of the pressure you have been under and then tornadoes! Damn girl!! Keep your chin up and remember that even though most of us don't know you, we know your spirirt because you have chosen to share it.

Thanks and much love from the East Coast!; 9:20 AM
kristabella said...: I'm glad you're back and doing better!

And what an asshat! As someone who has battled depression, like a lot of this country, I applaud you for being so open about it so we can stop having such a stigma around it and people can start getting help!; 12:06 PM
erica said...: Thank you for being honest. I hope you are feeling better. And I hope you realize that type of person who disses you is a complete asshat not worthy of the time you spend thinking about them.

The people who know you love you, the people who don't love you aren't worth knowing.; 12:23 PM
S Watts said...: Chrystal,

My prayers are with you. I have gone through similiar, and now, years later, am well on my way to becomming an RN. Asking for help is the best way to get it, and it's a sad statement about this society when we jump to the conclusion that there is a dishonest motive behind all such things. I think your bravery, honesty, and sincerity go a long way towards making this world a better place. Thank you. Take care.; 12:36 PM
Crystal's Pastor said...: Maybe we should change the tagline for our church ---

FaithPoint....where crazy people like you can thrive and survive (and get loved on)

I hope that Mr. McNob has been passing along the hugs that I've been sending to you.

bro. K; 12:58 PM
Christie said...: hey chica, you're right. It IS hard to ask for help. I know because I was also "committed" almost over a year ago. Although, I didn't ask for it like I should have.

Hope your feeling better. Just take it day by day.; 1:32 PM
Kim said...: I don't know that I've ever commented on your blog. You're like one of two that I find the time to read lately (2 year old + 16 credit hours + full-time job = miracle that I have any sanity right now). When I was blog checking the other day I saw your entry about being in the hospital I saw rockstarmommy.com's final entry after years of reading her.

Anyways, as someone who's been there twice, I can imagine what type of material you have. I hope to never go back, but if I ever need to I can only hope for your strength to recognize it.; 1:39 PM
NannyOgg said...: Welcome back home.

Many warm {{{ HUGS }}} and positive energy your way.

You got help when you needed it, nothing bad in that, actually it is very courageous.

Sending you a nice cup of tea and of course, chocolate.

Karen (from Our Deer Baby); 2:18 PM
Anonymous said...: Hey Crystal,

I think I've only posted a comment a couple of times over the years (the last time being a congratulations when Harmony was born), but I read every post you write.

Anyhoo...welcome back and God bless. You are in my prayers and I'm proud of you for being so strong and asking for help. It's not easy being a working mom, having a newborn, and writing such witty and entertaining blog entries. You truly are superwoman, worthy of our admiration.

Now go get some rest and take good care of yourself.

You are in my prayers!

Karen; 2:24 PM
Anonymous said...: Bless you Honey. I have been there twice in my life. It does get better. Going into the hospital both times for 4 days is the best thing I ever did for myself.

You will be stronger, better and able to cope better with the tools and help they gave you.

Just hang in there and give the meds a good long time to start working. Until then, don't even read the nay sayers crap.

If they cared where the money when all that much, they should not have donated without verification in the first place.; 2:46 PM
TigressLover said...: I dont care if you used the money to get a boob job ( I know you didnt LOL) I gave of my own free will because I have been blessed by others helping me. I was paying it forward. screw anyone who says or thinks bad things. NOT your problem! WE know your heart was pure thats all that matters!! We love ya Crystal hope all is well!

Love light & Laughter
Tigress; 3:42 PM
Gerbil said...: Crystal, my family has struggled with various things that have required some to be temporarily hospitalised, and it is not a shameful thing, but can be the way out of darkness. 3 years ago I very nearly lost my daughter to suicide and two weeks of intense and dedicated care in the hospital she was admitted to is the saving grace that allowed her to start recovering.

Knowing when you have reached a point where you need more help is a strength and I hope you don't spend much time worrying about what those outside your daily life think of you. Worry about getting better.; 3:51 PM
Gerbil said...: This post has been removed by the author.; 3:51 PM
Mr. Bud said...: Crystal, be well. Let those who judge, judge. You know if you've been good. (well, and santa) I am quite ready for one flew over the kookoo's nest stories.

what was that.. a mind's a terrible thing to waste ad.
' this is your brain on real life'; 7:16 PM
Jessica said...: Good on you for getting help. You so right, not everyone who needs help will seek it. It takes a very brave person to admit that they need help.

I sincerely hope that things go better for you than they have, and thank you for sharing so much of yourself with us.; 7:18 PM
Anonymous said...: Someone once said to me, "Don't bother explaining yourself. Your friends don't need it...and your enemies wouldn't believe it anyway."

The majority of us may be relatively faceless and nameless, but we are - and will be for some time to come - your friends.; 7:43 PM
Guairdean said...: Welcome back. We're here if you need to vent, even if it isn't funny. Congratulations on finding the courage to get help.; 8:57 PM
Tinker said...: So who tucked Viginia in, while you were out having "Fun"? I hope daddy is an acceptable substitute.; 9:10 PM
HollyB said...: Crystal, I blogged, finally about having had MH issues myself.
If somebody is going to marginalize you or anyone else b/c of that, they better start with Barbara Bush and work their way down the Social Ladder from there.

Besides, Fuck 'em if they are that stoopid!

HollyB; 9:22 PM
phlegmfatale said...: Other people have no authority over you and no right to judge your way of sorting through your life. Other people - particularly those not in your immediate circle - don't deserve the power to interfere with your emotions like that. What you did was brave and bold and a very honest way of dealing with a problem, and I'm wishing you well.; 12:55 AM
Leesa said...: Obviously from your van Goh’s comment you are fully aware that all amazing people are mental!

I consider myself both – amazing and mental. You are amazing – therefore mental. It’s my theory.

I have been to that hole which is so dark and the walls are so tall and made of soft butter – for moments of my life I never thought I would be able to crawl out.

Do I have issues? Absolutely

Do you have issues? I wouldn’t care about you as much as I do if you didn’t.

If you need to speak (and God knows that probably what you did “inside”) email, text message – send fucking smoke signals but you have to know that I am here for you 100%

I don’t know why – I can’t explain why I just adore you. You probably have 1000 messages similar to this one.

I spent 5 weeks in a private institution – the first week I spent trying to escape (still don’t know why seeing I self admitted and could leave anytime through the front door) the next 4 weeks, I spent learning skills. The next six months I spent getting over the 5 weeks. The next year I spent getting over the six months.

There is a light at the end of the tunnel – and it’s a fucking train!!!! You have absolutely done the right thing by taking control and seeking help! You have derailed the fucker and you will be fine with time, love and support!

Love you! Worried about you! Supporting you!

Leesa

(I did email you but I know you were having troubles - hence the message); 2:16 AM
Yippeeskip said...: Been there, done that in the psyc ward. We can compare notes. I'm pretty successful in real life and needed a bit of help myself.
You'll have good blog fodder for days.; 8:50 AM
WhiteTrashInDenial said...: Uh, I should also thank you for being the inspiration for my own blog and loaning me some of your fans.

Thanks, honey, that two day reading bender was well worth the time spent!; 8:55 AM
Kevin and Beth said...: Here's the thing about giving money to someone who needs it. All that is important is the fact that you cared enough to give. What happens after the fact does not affect the reason for giving. The selfess act of sharing with someone in need is what makes the difference between selfish people and people that care about other people.

“Teach this triple truth to all: A generous heart, kind speech, and a life of service and compassion are the things which renew humanity.”; 9:16 AM
Toni said...: You Rock!! I too went on a Crystal bender when I first stumbled onto your blog - I've laughed and cried with you. You have my support as a reader - another shoulder if you need it.; 9:37 AM
John B said...: they're suspicious of you cause you're now crazy and you've asked for -and got- money. Crystal Honey, you always were crazy. so it must be the money issue. Which puts your critic firmly in the category of either a jealous sibling or a welfare whiner. "She got more that me!" (Pouting Defiantly)

don't let a schmuck like that get you down....; 12:10 PM
Lizarita said...: HEY! Call me. Email me. Send a sky-writer. SOMETHING!?? I want to talk to you.

xoxoxo; 1:21 PM
JPG said...: Lady, you gotta lotta guts. Many of us could not have written something llike you have here and the previous post.

During the late 1980s, I had an ongoing problem with what I now know as depression. With a lot of help from a couple of good friends, I managed to come out of it. It would have been SO MUCH easier if I'd had the sense to go get help.

I was, frankly, afraid of how I would have been viewed by my peers and co-workers. Thankfully, things have changed significantly in the ensuing years can only applaud those like yourself and others who not onloy had the inate sense to get help, but to assist others by telling about it. You or my BB may just possibly the good example that influences someone on the ragged edge to go seek out assistance.

Again, bravo.
JPG; 1:52 PM
Heather B. said...: OK...I was actually "scared" for you, and I don't even know you! When I first read the post via your husband I was a little confused, I must admit I thought there was going to be an amazingly witty entry about Britney Spears coming..but then I was scared for you! I admire you for many things and again, I only know you from your freakin' hysterical blog...which I truly missed while you were gone. I admire your guts to ask for help when you needed it! Both for your grandparents and for yourself. I wish I could do that!! My family is literally drowning in medical debt, and I am too much of a chicken to "admit" we need help. I think that what you give to us readers on a regular basis is awesome, and will say special positive thoughts for your recovery everyday. Good Luck, and much cyber love!; 2:33 PM
Marie said...: Hi

I've been reading your blog sporadically over the last year. I stumble across it every so often on my blog hopping travels and then usually get engrossed for an hour or so reading up on what I've missed and PMSL at your throughly entertaining and pertinent posts. Usually I end up crying with laughter with my DH wondering what the hell I'm reading that's causing me to nearly wet my pants (really should have done more of those pelvic floor exercises after squeezing out the second munchkin! LOL).

I haven't commented before, and I'm commenting now for a very strange reason - which is that I have just, literally half an hour ago finished reading "Running with scissors" - and then there it was mentioned in your post. Isn't it weird how that happens sometimes?

Anyway, I just wanted to send some {{HUGS}} and "emotional maturity" vibes your way ;) There's a little Finch in all of us I say! (and not in a perverted ornithological way!!)

Stay well, and I look forward to reading more when you're back in the land of blogdom proper.

xMx; 2:50 PM
Janna said...: Hugs and support, Crystal. Pfft! to the people questioning your motives.; 2:53 PM
The other me said...: There have been so many times when I wished I could just check myself in somewhere and get 'fixed' or at least nearly fixed, I am so vain that I tell myself they couldn't cope without me and so I stay here, making them all miserable and nervous. Good for you that you got the help you need, may you soon feel well and truly happy again soon. Helen.; 3:37 PM
Anonymous said...: I cannot ignore critical comments, but I hope you can.
&%(#&#& 'em if they bug you.
Congratulations on having the sense to seek help, and I hope you found it. I've been there.
I've liked your writing so much I went all the way back to the beginning to read it. Quite a story.
You're too cool to give up or be upset. Hang in there.
Jenny; 6:09 PM
Ru La Re Jo said...: I'm glad you sought the help you needed. My Mom has been facilities before, and is better for it. I'm in therapy for the second time in my life and, again, am better for it. There is NOTHING shameful about it.

Lots of love and warm fuzzies from a long time fan. It's funny, we've never met or talked, but I feel like I know you a little, from having read your blog all this time. So I mean this when I say that you are in my thoughts and prayers, and I hope to hear all your tales of the place soon ;); 7:28 PM
Melissa said...: Crystal honey, we're ALL a little crazy!
It must be something in the air, 'cause it seems to be going around. A lot of people I know are close to the edge.
Glad to hear you are home and safe.
Cannot wait to hear of your adventure.
Hugs from Texas!; 10:48 PM
Kandi-Shop With a Mom.com said...: I, like some of the others, was waiting for the punchline when I saw the post about you going into the hospital. As the days worn on of course I realized that it was true and I have been checking and checking for you to post again and worried that you wouldn't.

You know, Crystal, I have always said and will always say that everyone on this planet needs a therapist. ALL OF US... let me say that again... ALL OF US have things that get to us; we have all been injured, stepped on, beaten down, cheated, and God, the list goes on and on, and not one of us can say with any truth, "Yeah, that happened to me, but I came out of it just fine." YEAH, BULLSHIT.

When someone seeks help, it shows a great STRENGTH and a desire to live. (Not that those that DON'T seek help are weak!)

I KNOW what it is like to feel like you are in a big glass box and everyone else is on the outside walking around you, and you are screaming your damn head off and they either can't or WON'T hear you. Sometimes you have to smash the glass to get a reaction.

The fact that you sought help is a testament to your strength, your ability to see beyond yourself and love your children (so much that you didn't want to leave them without a mom), and it shows that you have a group of people in your life that you can trust enough to let go and let them take over for a while.

We read your blog and we see this amazing, funny, insightful, intelligent person, but we forget that this is a human being that hurts and has just as many frailties as we all do. (Heck we read this stuff because our lives SUCK, and we come to your blog, to make us laugh; to make it a little more bearable!)

Okay I will shut up now, but in closing I want to say that I am BEYOND pissed and can't even BEGIN to express just how angry I am with the person that questioned your integrity. If I sit here and even dwell on it for one minute I am going to be so angry I won't be able to sleep. So I am going to try to chalk it up to that person's complete and utter ignorance. There are so many reasons why that is just BEYOND STUPID. I mean for them to.....oops there I go!

We all think you are great, Crystal! And if this guy next to me at the day-room table will stop eating the checkers long enough to pass the crayons, I will write you a big letter before we have to go back to our rooms for lights out! **WINK**

Take care!; 12:24 AM
Snoopy said...: Noone that gives so much joy to so many can be without inspiration themselves for long. You are greatly loved, and that feeling will return to you. I saw a comment from Australia, and I am in South Africa. Choose a continent, and someone there is thinking of you, and willing you better. Your life touches too many to go unrewarded, and that love will reach you.; 5:19 AM
Fat Chick said...: ((HUGS)) I'm in a similar emotional situation as you are right now. I hope you found the help you were looking for. Some times that's half the battle. You've lost no creditablity in my mind. Stay tough!
~ FC; 7:25 AM
Suldog said...: God bless you, Crystal. I'm saying a prayer for you right now.; 8:04 AM
Anne said...: You rock, Crystal! Maybe fewer of us would be struggling with these demons if more of us were open about them - and, of course, if there were fewer idiots in the world who make us afraid to do so!

Take care of YOU!

I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell...
Anne; 8:56 AM
Shecky X said...: Pretty much any time I see someone thinking they should be "suspicious" of someone who has given them NO reason to be suspicious, I have to have a lie-down. I mean, c'mon, everybody's knee-jerk reaction (deep down inside) is a little bit of paranoia ("Wait, what does that mean? Now I can't be sure they're on the up-and-up... [eventually comes to] I should've known it all along - they're out to screw us."), but what sets civilized people apart from those who've never grown past their id and ego is that the REST of us get OVER that impulse.

Jackholes like Mr. Suspicious should all be boarded up in one crowded room and told they'll be there for three weeks with no food and no water. Maybe they'll eat each other and remove themselves from the gene pool. Asshats.; 9:31 AM
Nikita said...: Getting help and/or therapy is a great thing.

Our world would be a better place if even half of the people acknowledged their need for assistance once in a while.; 9:33 AM
Gnat of Glass said...: Whatever...blah blah blah..Tune out the noise.

If they think you hosed them they just have not spent enough time around here yet to understand the underpinnings of what happends in life with the wonder sausage, crazy dog that run from you husband, puking kids, vage playing videos games, and that one bush "That was just asking for it by not wearing a burka".

gnat.
.; 10:15 AM
elanova said...: Your courage makes me want to be a better person. Your funnies make me want to pee my pants. Isn't it nice when two seemingly unrelated things can coexist in one person?

Hang in there - we're all pulling for you.; 10:18 AM
eggplant43 said...: It's been very gratifying to see all the wonderful responses, the love and support expressed here over the last couple of days for you Crystal. Very few people respond, so perhaps 5% of your readership has responded, but it is easy to speculate that the comments represent about 99% of the sentiment of those of us who eagerly follow your words.

Many people have commented here about the bravery it takes to ask for help, and I'm sure that's important, but for me, when I needed to get help, I found the most important thing was my decision that I MATTERED, that was the beginning of my path to happiness, that recognition that I was worthy, that I deserved to be happy.

Here I am, 15 years later, still happy.; 10:34 AM
Alisa said...: First of all....blessing to you and well wishes for a speedy recovery. Second of all, in my opinion, you should just tell those people to "shut their damn pie holes"! That's all I gotta say. Thinking about you and missing your frequent posts. Take care of yourself!; 2:04 PM
Mama Drama Jenny, the Bloggess said...: I'm glad you're back. I'm not much of a commenter but I'm a reader and even though I'm like your 2 billionth commenter I'd just like to say that getting help is fucking brave and admirable and also that I will happily kick the ass of whoever was bashing you.; 3:11 PM
Caity from Cali said...: Since I'm #193 of people who PPH you, I hope you understand the depths of our collective love for you! You are an amazingly sweet, funny, caring, and incredibly gifted writer who deserved a break for all of us crazied fans begging for more of you. I only wish my father had had the courage you showed- not only admitting you needed help, but sharing it with the cruel, stupid world... Hang in there, and know that across the world, people are busy praying for you. I personally am going to engage in some blood sacrifice for your sake!; 4:17 PM
Lotta said...: Brave, brave Crystal!; 4:30 PM
Sissel said...: #195 here I think. You have got to be feeling the love and support. I hope that will add some comfort to your current situation, whatever it is. Seriously, there are days when it doesn't seem right to get out of pajamas, but I'm not supposed to show up for work like that. So I change. Most days, I feel like I could use a little help. I'm glad you sought it. I will add you to my prayer list.
On another note. I am usually suspicious when people ask for money on the internet or any other similar situation. It's just in my nature. But I didn't think twice when I read your column. Not twice. I didn't question it at all. And happily donated. I hope your
grandparents are okay. Anyone who "knows" you-would trust you. Smile, forget the schmucks who don't understand, and go forward. We all rely on your wit and humor, and love ya.

Blessings,
Sissel; 5:17 PM
Lee Ann said...: Dear Mrs. McKnob,

I've been reading your site for some time and this is the first time that I've commented.

I've prayed when you've asked for prayers. When donations were needed to help those in need, I did what I could (donate or pray that He would find a solution). When I read the post from your Darling Husband, I prayed and was proud.

At a time when asking for help is seen by others as a weakness, you've shown that it is so much more than that. It's knowing yourself, your family and what you need to be the best person that you can be for yourself and your family and friends.

Glad to have you back and hope that life will find a way to be kinder and gentler to you. Thank you for all the laughter, the tears (from laughter and your touching posts) and the optimism that you share.

Thank you.; 7:31 PM
Daren said...: I'd like to say that I've never commented, but I just don't know.

At any rate, asking for help is the hardest, MOST courageous thing you can do.

So glad you're back.; 10:28 PM
FupFairy said...: Crystal,
I've just found your blog today, so it's all your fault that I've been sitting in front of this infernal computer ALL DAY while I read every entry in the archives. I couldn't pull myself away...well except to go pee & gulp down some water. It's a good thing I've been wearing panty pads for a long time because I bet I wet myself at least a dozen times while I nearly fell out of this chair laughing & crying over your wonderful, quirky, insane look at what surrounds you. I nearly commented when the shit storm over the racial crap started....but I couldn't stop reading long enough to manage it.

Your intelligence & bravery amidst the chaos is just awe inspiring to say the least. Now that I'm seriously addicted to your blog, I will be sending all the positive vibes and virtual hugs in your direction, praying that you are back to what constitutes normal in short order. I admit that it's purely selfishness on my part since I will need a "Crystal fix" on a regular basis.

And the comment I was going to make before, applies just as well now and has been my favorite saying for too many years to count...."The criticism you have so freely volunteered is duly noted, fuck you very much."

I have delivered that line to many people while working in various service industries...done with a cheerful tone of voice, smiling like someone had just informed me I'd won the lottery, speaking very quickly and walking away immediately. I look back to see them with assorted looks of confusion and puzzlement on their dazed faces trying to figure out if they could possibly have heard me correctly and convicing themselves that I must have said "thank you" since it was done so politely. Always does my heart good!; 1:40 AM
Reiven said...: Hi Crystal,

Damn, it looks like a lot of us are surviving depression. so here is what I do when I feel bad. 1) I read your blog 'cause it makes me laugh. I know it's hard to be funny right now and we don't expect it of you. Take the time you need to heal. 2)I go to cuteoverload.com and look at the cute pictures of puppies! seriously, I do. 3)I go to youtube and watch vids from the british version of "coupling" and almost pee my pants from laughing so much. Rent your favourite comedies and just relax, breathe and know you are loved and well thought of.; 3:02 AM
Anne said...: I think 199 comments have already said everything I have wanted to say but I'll say it again!
Love you and Love your blog!!!
You have saved me from many a bad day!
Am sending happy thoughts and hugs your way!!

Am pretty much checking hourly for an update.... but in your own time!!; 6:32 AM

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