Sunday, October 21, 2012

My Own Worst Enemy

Ok, so I have access to crappy internet for a few minutes. Before it crashes on me, again, I'll touch the highlights: * made a huge mistake and got a divorce. * car died. * got fired. * lost everything. * living with a man who will, I'm fairly certain, end up killing me in my sleep. * kids are ok. * I am not. * but I will be. Dammit. * finally went back to school like I promised my Dad I would. * got my first tattoo. * haven't broken any bones in almost two years. * am trying to write, again. * trying to live, again. * trying to laugh, again.

22 comments:

Vod Kanockers said...

Just damn! Hang in & on... bound to get better! Hope you can post more often...

Usedtobeme a/k/a Stella D. said...

Girl. I'm feeling most of what you wrote right there. They keep telling me it will get better. I'm not sure they're right, but I'll tell you the same thing. Someday, we will walk tall again. xoxoxo

Sarah said...

Glad to hear about going back to school! Although I guess that's tempered by moving in with a homicidal man :-) Glad to hear you're writing again, you've got a real gift.

Victoria said...

Have missed you...hopefully we get to see some of this writing and hear more about some of these stories.

walking girl said...

So glad you're still breathing! You're a brilliant writer.

Not a Granny said...

Standing by with the others. Hoping you stay safe!!! Miss you!

Jennifer said...

Keep your head up. You will get through it.

Grue said...

*hug*

RunninL8 said...

Ugh.......stay strong/those babies come first....get out as soon as you can....you are brilliant, brilliant, brilliant....and you all deserve better. Hugs and hope streaming out to you....

Jenny said...

We'll all still read if you still write. Hang in there.

Sarah said...

* Sorry :( * Boo! * Boo! * Boo! * lNo! Get out! * Yay! * Boo * Damn right, yay! * Yay, yay yay! * yay! * Yay! * Yes! * Yes! * You must!

Osbasso said...

Pretty much what Sarah said.

And I hope your pride doesn't prevent you from asking any of us for some help if you ever need it!

Evyl Robot Michael said...

I was just thinking about you the other day. It's good to hear from you, but take care of yourself! Looking forward to you fleshing out some of these issues more.

Mrs F. said...

You´re much better than you give yourself credit for. You said that you´ve made bad decisions but you´re always in time of making good ones. Stop cutting yourself short!

liz said...

Sending hugs

Anonymous said...

Could be worse. Could be raining.

Hang in there. A lot of people like hearing from you.

Brigitte Rankin said...

Hate to hear that! hang in there..and get out of there..

Al said...

egrohesHang in there. There are a whole lot of us out here in the blogosphere pulling for you and sending good Karma your way!

Memphis Steve said...

Well holy crap! You have done a lot since last I heard. And despite the down notes, sadly your life sounds far more exciting than mine. Or at least I think so.

Judy Susan said...

Well shit.. I so miss you.. I will keep you in my thoughts..
Please don't let him kill you in your sleep.

Carolt said...

Hope being in your new place means you are now safe. One day at a time. Love your kiddies and feel the love they give you. You are (still) strong and moving forward. Good for you Crystal.

fleur0112 said...

Getting married was a huge mistake so you got a divorce, or getting a divorce was a huge mistake?